Colton Underwood has revealed that he feared getting sexually aroused by his fellow men football players while narrating how he struggled hiding his true sexuality.

The former football player really struggled hiding his homosexual feelings for years before he eventually came out as gay in April this year.

Underwood has shared some of his experiences while professionally active in the American football community.

Speaking on “Call Her Daddy” podcast on Wednesday December 15, the former football player said that he avoided showering in men’s locker rooms after football practice when he was still in the closet out of fear he might be sexually aroused by a teammate.

“I never really was attracted to anybody who I played with, so it’s sort of silly to even say that, but I wanted to avoid any chance of being outed so I would not shower with the rest of the team.”

The former NFL player also revealed that when it came to acting on his sexual desires, he would hook up with men who he thought were straight in their real life too, adding, that they were all pretty closeted themselves.

“I don’t think there was any man that was going to be coming out to get me because they would be outing themselves as well. It wasn’t like a ton of men. It was like a few, and they never had my real name… That’s sort of how scared and secretive it all was.”

Underwood also shared that he once went so far to try and suppress his feelings toward other men with medication in his new Netflix series “Coming Out Colton”.

“I was suppressing my sexuality so hard that I was taking medication daily to deal with depression and anxiety, and that made me a paranoid freak.

“I didn’t trust a whole lot of people, and I was trying to do anything and everything I could to protect a secret.”